confusing again

what am i doing now ?? like a nerd ...like a stupid kids asking sweet from elder ...i think i should make a decision asap ....between LSW and LSX ..i must choose either one ...dun step on 2 boat ...that's not fair for 3 of us

just a update for my blog

erm....nth special in these few months....just sometimes happy and sometimes upset and feel down ... many things have changed ....the first thing is my class....mayb this problem happened long time ago ...but watever it is la ....i wont bother about that ....

erm....beside that ...should i be get into 'u' again or once more ?? or we just staying this relationship ?? or we should move backward for some reason ?? i dunno how to express my feeling now ... when u happy ...absolutely i will happy .... but when u upset and down ....i will feel pain and helpless ...i will blame myself for cant help u at all ... because of some situation ...i cant get near to u ....because i dun hope we will become one of the topic in our school .... and i dun wan to afect u in ur life ... watever it is ... i hope i can stay beside and around u at all times....i hope u will think of me when u need help and when u need someone to talk to ... i will be staying around and stand by 24-hours to be ur listener ....

读书的时候到了

真惨..现在开始就要开始认真读书了..不能再玩了..不过..在五个月后...我就会回来了..我会让你们都记得是谁回来了=p..暂时写到这吧..

难熬的日子过去了: 面对新的生活吧

我已经可以确定..我不再想你们了..或许..我的经历还不够..但对于一个十七岁的男生应该算超越了吧..我不会再对你们说一句对不起了..因为我已经补偿回我所有的错误了..现在剩下的..是你们欠我的.但.我不打算要你们赔偿我..就当作是扯平吧..我不是一个不认输的失败者..我只是一个不逞强不倔强的失败者..但人是需要经过失败挫折才会懂得成长的..我不是说我很成熟了..我只是要说..我有着其他人没有的经历和经验..

你不想要把我当成朋友..没关系.因为我也已经不打算再去请求别人任何东西了..我可以放弃所有的一切..包括你..我拿得起就放得下..是你选择了其他人..但我不怪你..因为最先犯错的人是我..

我的记忆力已经越来越衰退了..我真得很担心..担心有一天我会把所有的东西都忘记了..早知当初就不该动手术..真是活该..唯有靠自己慢慢在增强自己的记忆力吧..

我应该没事了吧

希望我自己已经没事了啦..其实这样的日子也不怎么难熬嘛..或许说我也麻木了吧..怎么说玻璃心已经溃不成形了..该怎么把碎片一片片的不回去呢??就算补回外形..里面的核心会是空心的吗??

事情发生也该有一个月了吧..真佩服我的复原能力是那么快的..或许刚开始只是我不甘心吧..今天看回旧电话的信息..想起当初我们是多么的开心的..转眼间我们就成了陌生人似的..

看来我也应该成熟点吧..我不应该再像小孩子那样了..人是需要独立成长的..我可以告诉你..没有你的生活..我还是依然过得很好..只是少了当初的喜悦快乐..拥有过就足够了..美好的事物不一定要保留..这是你们射手座的本性吧..不过我们巨蟹座..可是和你们刚好相反的..我们会珍惜所有一切美好的事物..我们会永远守护和徘徊在从前的回忆..我们是非常念旧的生物..不像你们永远只迎接未来的事情..和你们得过且过的性格..我们可是很难才有机会配对在一起的星座..所以..如果以后你遇到了蟹子..记得要好好地珍惜他..别再让蟹子受伤了..因为不是每一个蟹子都像我那么固执和倔强的..

说完..祝你的新生活过得愉快..Y.N.M.D.A FAREWELL

该忘记了吧

故事本来应该有完美的结局的..不过..我们的故事..应该到此结束了吧..还没到最恶劣的地步就该结束了吧..我们走不下去了..应该说从未开始他出过第一步吧..一直以来都是我自己一厢情愿..以为darling就是一切..我把我们之间的“特殊关系”看的太过重要了..你应该从没有把这件事..放过在心上吧..

别人说的..要忘记一个人..就必须去找另外一个人..这也是我们认识的原因吧..过客的时期过完了..我就变回陌路人了..我不会再说谢谢..或是对不起了..因为这些词语..都曾经狠狠的伤害过我..伤心总是会结束的..我会慢慢地忘记你..就把以前的事情当是一场梦吧..现在梦醒了..就该继续走我们自己的路了..我不会再找你了..我会彻底地把你忘掉..你给过我的东西..我会把它们都收好..我不会再碰关于和属于我们两个的东西了..如果有机会..我会把我们之间所谓的“情侣机”给换掉..相信你一早就想换了吧..

现在的你..应该和新的darling在谈着心事或很开心得聊着吧..我这个人...该说是单纯还是笨呢..不过都没关系了..不重要了..我失去所有的一切..都是我自己活该的..我不可以怨别人..一开始就已经是个错误了..我竟然还会把头栽进去..真是活该..我常常问我自己..为何我会喜欢上你的呢..真的是有日久生情的吗..

我是多么的想要恨你..怨你..我很想很恨得把你给忘掉..我多么得想憎恨你..不过我办不到..我的心就是一直想着要和你保留一点点的关系..我无法对你做到绝情绝义..就因为这样..所以我从以前到现在才会这样..就只因为我喜欢上你了..明知道不可能了..我还是要继续下去..真的是蠢到无药可救了..我无法原谅我自己的过失..我无法接受现在这样的事实..不过..我会慢慢的适应..适应没有你的世界..以后我们见面了..记得要把我当成不认识的人..不过我想我不说你也会这样做吧..

多说也是多余的..总之以后你一切好之为知了..好好的保重..

wat can i do

wat should i do ... wat can i do ....wat u wan ?? i dun wan to be like now....its very hard for me ... i really dunno wat can i do more to solve the problem... i should say to solve this condition....i really dunno wat should i do ... suddenly all hte things change to become like this ...

i admit i haven let it go before at all.... i admit i like u .... and i know watever i do also no use..cause between us just darling's relationship ... i wont be the one that u like...i choose to stay in darling geh relationship because i dun wan us to be like all my last experience...all the end is break up ... i wan to be stay beside u .... i wan to be like before ... we chat everythings ...there are no secret between me and u ... i dunno since when .... secret appear between us ...mayb is that time ...i choose to stay beside u because i dun wan to lost u ... u r the only one can chat with me in deep heart ... u r the one who accompany me and persuade me to get through all the HARDS..u r the one who help me and ask me to stay strong in all condition ...

i dun wan to lost u ...i dun wan we just end like this .. it shouldn't be like this ...i really dunno wat should and wat can i do for revive our darling relationship..i'm stuck and i'm paralyse when we become like ths ... i dunno wat can i do to solve this ..i dunno wat u want ... i dunno why everythings suddenly change to become like this ... pls tell me wat should i do ... wat can i do ...

tell me wat to do that can let us amity...tell me wat can i do that only can let u come b ...tell me wat to do to get our friendship back .... pls dun torment me.... pls ..pls....pls dun let me go through all this again ... pls....i dun wanna to be alone ....